Vogue Williams, 40, candidly discussed feeling “felt embarrassed” after her marriage to Westlife’s Brian McFadden, 45, came to an end.

The Irish media personality wed the boy band member in 2012, but their union lasted only three years. Their divorce was finalized in 2017, with Vogue, now 40, having previously disclosed that she struggled with anxiety following their breakup.

The television star, who previously disclosed an old mistake, confesses she had always pictured herself “married with kids” before reaching 30. Opening up about her marriage’s collapse on her YouTube show Vogue Williams – What Does She Even Do?, the mother of three revealed: “I had it in my mind that I would be married with kids when I was 30.”

She continued: “I felt really embarrassed at the start, of the whole failure of getting divorced, but you have to say yes to things and when you feel really down, or sad, break-ups are the hardest thing in the world, I think. They’re almost like a death, you’re so engulfed in them, but if you force yourself to go out then it does get easier.”

After her divorce from Brian was completed, Vogue met former Made in Chelsea star Spencer Matthews while filming The Jump.

She admitted the divorce was embarrassing for her(Image: Dave Benett/Getty Images for Hyde Park Winter Wonderland)

The spark between them was instant, and despite Vogue acknowledging they “tried” to fight their attraction, they eventually couldn’t keep their distance. She confessed: “Spenny and I tried not to be with each other, we tried. I’d just come out of a long term relationship and I had been dating around for the first time in my life, it was the first time I’d felt comfortably single in my life and I was like, ‘I really want to keep doing this, I’m enjoying myself.’

“So I didn’t want to be with anybody but we kept falling back into each other. As much as we tried not to be together, we kept coming back together, so that’s how I knew [he was the one] in the end.”

At the time, she viewed divorce as a ‘failure'(Image: Scott Barbour, Getty Images)

Vogue shared that her friends had encouraged her to give Spencer a shot, but she insisted they’d remain pals, labeling him as “a good craic.” In January 2018, several months after they began dating, Spencer popped the question during a trip to The Lion King at London’s West End, reports the Irish Mirror.

Five months later, the duo tied the knot at Spencer’s family estate, Glen Affric, tucked away in the Scottish Highlands. This was followed by a second celebration, which was filmed for Channel 4’s Spencer, Vogue and Wedding Two.

Now, Vogue has a relationship with Spencer Matthews(Image: Instagram)

The couple now have three children — Theodore, Gigi, and Otto. Vogue has previously hinted at plans for a third wedding ceremony with Spencer to mark their ten-year anniversary in 2028.

In a candid chat with her friend Joanne McNally on their My Therapist Ghosted Me podcast last year, Vogue revealed: “I have bad news. Spen and I, when we’re 10 years married, in three years time, we are going to do a wedding. I know that we got married, but when we got married in Scotland and that wasn’t meant to be our wedding, there were like 20 people there.

“Then we did the TV wedding, which wasn’t a real wedding, because it just wasn’t a real wedding, it was for TV. We actually want to do a wedding in three years’ time when we’re married for 10 years. No one will bloody believe it, imagine being married to someone for 10 years.”